The Nothing Person

There are people who we meet who give us nothing but anxiety. There are those who enhance our anger and those who physically and emotionally abuse us. But the people that interest me the most are those who are nothing people. These kinds of people are those who are as their name describes, nothing. They are conversationally stunted, lack energy to give to the world, who live without passion. Those who don’t wish to discuss complex feelings or are detached from culture enough to not understand popular references. They don’t have strong opinions and make beds in indecision. They are boundless, walking towards the next light that draws them in. They are creatures of habit and of effortless sights. They might seem interesting at first, sucking people into their black hole of pure nothingness. You enjoy that they are like a blank slate to mold with you, but for the emotionally educated folk their void isn’t enjoyable, its oil slicked despair. They drain the life out of you, making you hold up all the emotional labor and driving every decision. No equality exists within this relationship as the nothing person feeds off of the energy you freely give the world. A term that comes up could be an energy vampire, but these kinds of people feed off solely your energy. The nothing person exists to deplete you of your unique qualities, to fall into the mouth of their venus fly trap, to spill all your interest into them for them to pour into the void of themselves. They want for people to match their energy, to bring them to their level. But as you please nothing people you slowly lose the height of what marks you as interesting. To submit to these people is to give up on your mission in life to fit inside theirs. I write about this now because I fell into the trap, and began to see the holes forming. I began to become indecisive of what I wanted to do, uninterested in speaking about anything real, and getting devoured into a concave of dark dark space. I nearly let my mind go as I noticed something important, the way they kissed me brought me what they gave to the table, nothing. There were no fireworks, no warmth in my chest, I just felt their lips and was repulsed by their breath. The kiss was also non consensual, but usually the boundary is one of fear of being crossed. But even that fear wasn’t there, nothing fell into its place. I knew that anyone that could make me feel nothing when they kissed me was someone who was a nothing person to me. That to waste anymore time on them was to fall to your knees and surrender parts of your soul that can’t be replaced. So I sent a message to them and blocked their number and suddenly I’m free. I refuse to let them take all the hard work I’ve accomplished to feel my feelings and be understood. I will not exist for them and they shall not deprive me of me. There are a lot of nothing people in your lives, what is stopping you from ripping the band aid off and finding people that are something? Who challenge your beliefs, who praise you when you’ve done something right. Who actually contributes to the conversation instead of deflecting. You need better and healthy relationships, and it all starts with banishing the nothing people and starting anew.